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Tuesday, December 11, 2007 I need answers
I recall the times while we were studying during the exam period in our own homes and you would call me at intervals to ask how much I've progressed or basically because we were thinking of each other. This doesn't happen anymore. Is it me, thinking too much againnnn or is it you, who just doesn't seem to be There, be it in physically or mentally. Why do i feel this way? Give me an answer.
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
I'm sorry. I know we love each other, but you love me as friend. You might just be taking me for granted, you might actually only take me as a good friend. Maybe, just maybe, you don't actually want me as a lover. I'm confused, I really am. You are not assuring me enough, and maybe that's cause you don't love me in that way anymore. You don't say 'I love you' to me anymore. You don't yearn to be by my side anymore. I don't know what I should do. Things are just too different. I miss you so much. I miss the other you, the old you. I really do. I look at your old pictures as if I have not seen you in a long time, as if you were gone from me forever. I look at them and I cry to myself.. because I miss you. The old you. So maybe the whole problem lies with me. Maybe I'm only in love with the old you and not you. Maybe we aren't meant to be. .jpg) I made a wish; wished that you would come back and we would stay together forever.
Sunday, October 28, 2007
[ follow her ] When she stares at your mouth [ smile, then kiss her ] When she pushes you or hits you [ hug her tight ] When she starts cursing at you [ say i love you ] When she's quiet [ hold her hand and ask what's wrong ] When she ignores you [ act cute so she'll notice you ] When she pulls away [ Pull her back ] When you see her at her worst [ tell her you love her and she stilllooks amazing ] When you see her crying [ hold her, ask her what's wrong ] When you see her walking [ approach her, give her a kiss on thecheek. ] When she's scared/afraid [assure her you're not going to leave her ] When she lays her head on yourshoulders [ tilt your head too, and hold herhand ] When she steals your favorite cap [ let her keep it] When she teases you [ Tease her back and make her laugh ] When she doesn't answer for a long time [ reassure her that everything isokay ] When she looks at you with doubt [ Back yourself up ] When she says that she likes you [ she really does more than you could understand ] When she grabs your hands [ Hold hers and play with her fingers ] When she bumps into you [ bump into her back and make her laugh ] When she tells you a secret [ keep it safe and untold ] When she looks at you in your eyes [ don't look away until she does ] When she misses you [ she's hurting inside ] When you break her heart [ the pain never really goes away ] When she says its over [ she still wants you to be hers ] Thursday, October 25, 2007
You'll be away to Malaysia for 10 days, which is really long. I can still live without you, but I'll just be living in misery. haha. fuck yourself fel, it's just 10 days. You know what, after the stupid-est break-up, things might be a little different. But, we'll go through it together. Right? Love you, best thing. Thursday, March 22, 2007
Anyway, found a job with siling and felicia. telemarketeer. its really okay, but ahem somebody whines all the time after work... This job is kinda depriving me of my life. I hafta to work on saturdays too! how annoying is that. well, but i guess thats kinda the only disadvantage. other than that, should be fine... hmm. I think I miss just cuddling. Tuesday, March 20, 2007 Don't question.
Was I being the asshole or were you being the asshole? My imaginations are haunting me. I feel so psychotic because I just want to scratch till I bleed. Seriously I can't find a reason. Don't question. I don't have any answers. Saturday, March 17, 2007
This might just be a test. Nothing's exactly going right. I hope it'll be a short phase. Just grateful for friends and him, perhaps. A second ago I paused and thought, but brushed it off. It wouldnt be what it could be, I hope. No, it is a but, a test.
Friday, March 16, 2007
The usual nightmares cries. Tuesday, March 13, 2007
dyed my mum's blouse for her baked a cake did lots of washing met love a while watched harry potter and the chamber of secrets and now its 5am. Aiya I'm tired. Make me sleep. Monday, March 12, 2007
Anyway I haven seen or even talked to Tat and Eelin for quite a while. And I think we're supposed to go out this week right!! Oh yesterday was Dad's birthday. Didnt exactly celebrate though. Just ate at some usual sunday family spot then went to Singtel to get a new broadband thing and got a free phone. It's so freakin' thin man, but still ugly. Usual price was $500+. I think we'll be selling it. Heh. I still want my long awaited phone.. )= I want to put up all the links and maybe tagboard on this thing. It's just this thing called laziness. |